i've been thinking, and I've come to the conclusion that girls and relationships are drugs.
when you first lay your eyes on them, you get a sense of curiosity. what will happen if I smoke, snort, inject you into me? how long will the high (relationship) last? you may feel a bit nervous and uncomfortable before first approaching it... you may feel a little intimidated. is it worth it? what if the high turns out crappy?
you finally pick you your balls, and get the courage to throw some cash on the table and take a hit (go on a date). if you enjoy it, you may try it again on a later date. if it's crappy, you may never try it again and from then on conclude that it's just not your type of drug (guy/girl).
after a while, you may feel more comfortable around the drug (guy/girl). learn a lot about it (him/her), and a lot about yourself in the process, and how you act while on it. you feel content, are constantly happy, and love life. you may even love everything about the drug, all the good times, as well as all the crappy times. you may find that the drug becomes an addiction, and you can't live without it. you start having withdrawals (missing him/her) when it's not around, and need to have it around more often. up till now, it would have been easy for you to dispose of the drug, but now that you're addicted, disposal becomes painfully hard, and as time goes by, it only becomes harder. if the drug were to ever go away (break up), you wouldn't know what to do with yourself. you can't live without it.
the drug slowly loses the charm it first used to have, and you now need more of it to have the same high as before. (restaurants aren't good enough anymore, so fancier ones are needed.. the little gifts given aren't special anymore, larger more expensive ones need to be bought). more time, effort and cash.
suddenly, every hit becomes an unpleasant one. some hits even become extremely painful. you may get uncomfortable and confused around the drug. you don't understand what's going on. everything was fine before. you try to find solutions. more time between hits. stronger hits, weaker hits. take the hits with something else (having affairs). you experence the same crappy highs, and you finally give up and are through with the drug. nothing ever seems to work out.
from this place, you may react a couple different ways. you may either be through with all drugs.. hating everyone you see, no matter how appealing they are.. or you may feel the need to fill in that empty spot inside of you, so you go through your rebound stage and become very tempted to try any decent drug in arms reach.
the story just goes on and on. the higher the highs, the more painful the falls. you always have your idea of "the perfect drug" in the back of your head, but you never seem to find it since there's no such thing. every drug has its side effect. you may find ones that are close to perfect, but the relationship will eventually end in some way or another. something to remember before taking those pills, or going on that date.
and that's my story boys and girls.